Balancing Drive with Journey

My personality is one of constant unrest, a continual need to accomplish a task well and get on to the next thing.That concept of working long and hard, sacrificing for the end game, is an easy one for me, and I think there is value to being able to do that.

The yin to that yang is that ability to slow down and enjoy the journey, to see the value of being where you in this minute so as not to miss it in your quest for the next one.

These concepts seem to be diametrically opposed, but in truth are two sides of the same coin that should be reconciled in order to find peace. This reconciliation has become one of my fixations of late...

Randomness

Still pondering my purpose in the world, my passion to engage it. Random thoughts to that end:

Work has been interesting of late. One of the biggest sources of negativity got fired & life has become so much easier most of the time. Now just one more source to convert to optimism.

Teaching/family communication seems to be a strong suit--especially with regard to end of life issues....How odd that I feel I am my best talking with people about death...

"Spitballing" my identity in terms of who I am fundamentally--independent of anyone or anything around me:
Writer
Artist
Nurturer
Healer
Counsellor
Athlete
...feel free to add to this list. Terms some might consider negative welcomed in the interest of growth & self-reflection.

Randomness

One would think that after being away so long I would come back with great insights and things to share. Instead, I have randomness.

I wonder does the rest of the world live with this same feeling of restlessness in their souls. I suspect they do not. My older brother seems to have the same condition. My other brother and sister do not.

Mom is doing GREAT! I can't emphasize this or my joy about it enough.

I miss my Dad. Lots.

I compare myself to others too frequently. This comparison is the source of much of my unhappiness. Those things that make me unhappy but are not borne of comparison are the ones to be acted upon.

I came across a concept that I liked this morning. Things do not break apart. They break open. I think this is one to keep in the memory bank.

I have come to realize that one of my greatest fears is being "ordinary."

I haven't posted pics in a while, so even though these aren't the greatest, I'm going to post them. ( I was waiting for some better ones, but what the heck.) The obvious before pic is from August 2, 2010, the day before I started my LE journey.