Dinner day 1. After a chocolate martini my mind us a little closer to right. But I'm still not feeling good--colossally pissed. There was actually one point during the day when I questioned ever picking up a bell again which is wrong b/c my form was solid on all the instructional stuff. The snatch test has just fucked with my head. I woke up @ 5am worrying about it so I was hosed before I started. Gonna go back to the hotel room & do some visualization. Can't thank you all enough for the encouraging words--I can't even begin to say what they have meant. I am physically & emotionally exhausted & they were just what I needed. I'll post more details about everything when I get home.