dare mighty things
Because you're good enough to be there. you're suffering from self doubt because you're afraid you'll fail.David wouldn't have let you go yet, if you were not ready.Now suck it up and show them you're the woman we all admire.
I have news for you. Anyone coming from a perspective that would allow them to write "Elitism" has every business being there. Re-read it. Seriously, re-read it. Remember how much you love this, and why you love this. And know that probably every other miserable comrade you see there is thinking THEY are the unworthy POS puss. Go kick ass, your own included. Beat yourself out of the wrong mental place. Now is the time to absorb all that you can - and you can collapse into a puddle of mush at the end of the day - have a little cry if you need to - and THEN you will know you REALLY have what it takes when you hobble back the next morning to enjoy even more pain. And you will become an RKC. And we'll be eagerly awating Elitism 2.0. :)
There's that doubt creeping in again! Fight it!! Your body and your mind are stronger than you think they are...you're already there so make the best of it. What else are you going to do? Go home? Give 100% so you can look yourself in the mirror. You're doing this for YOU...nobody else. We all know you can do it, so...do it! I mean what's the worst that can happen? The DOW Jones is gonna drop another 300 points 'cause you didn't snatch a metal ball with a handle on it for some totally arbitrary number concocted by someone you barely know? I don't think so.
Don't listen to your mind -- it's eff-ed up and not your friend. Just put one foot in front of the other and DO THIS!!! (And re-read what Nikki said!)